Seperation (AW)

[Bhu ♥ Irwin]

I didn't say anything as Carska pushed me away with her words. She had let me rant. She had let me be angry. She deserved the same chance I had been given. She needed the same opportunities. If she was forced to keep it in, I knew it would be bad things. I didn't know what, but it would hurt her and eventually lead to her hurting others. I would not be responsible for that.

My head was dangling downwards, eyes closed so as not to see the unpleasantries I made these dogs feel. I hated everything about me. I was a disgusting, awful creature with nothing good in me. I was the Devil, if such a thing existed. A sick bastard with nothing to do but torment everyone and everything.

I would not believe Daiade. He was such an amazing dog, I knew he would have been alpha if not for my intrusion. And I knew Bidziil would have been happy because Carska would not have gone totally kittenhuggerish. The man loved her, even if she couldn't see it anymore. I knew. I believed he was there. The humans could not take who he is.

"I will not put daddy in danger." I watched Ekshen run away just as I whispered the words. He ran and so did I. I didn't care that my cubs detested my each step downwards. I was jostling them and it didn't bother me. Carska and Daiade would not follow me because they had given me permission to leave. They would go after Ekshen, and that is how it should be. I would go to Akando. That was final.

OOC//: I don't want to RP her here, anymore, lol.

[I L Y I C H]

I looked around furiously, not knowing where to look or what to even think. Not that it mattered. Everyone ahd just run away. As my eyes turned sharply to Daiade's own blind shock. They were after all just children, maybe I shouldn't blame them. Not Ekshen at least, he still had time to grow up. Abeni ont he other hand. I had a sick feeling that at least one of her unborn cubs were sure to die. Feeling exceedingly helpless I turned and trudged after Ekshen, not really paying all that much attention.

Daiade hurried after me after a moment, touching my shoulder as he limped ahead. "If he wants to come back he will go to our camp eventually." It was spoken softly and after a moment I changed directions and hobbled after him. He was right. Ekshen was almost an adult, and I could not make his decisions for him. As much as it hurt me I had to give up and let people be their own people. Damn. I hate giving up my control.