Post by Kunabee on Aug 12, 2013 13:29:02 GMT -5
Kunabee
And here they still thought I was a fool. They did not understand I saw myself. I was an idiot, yes, I was stupid; also yes, but fool? That I was not. Didn't they understand I knew myself? I shook my head sadly at everyone else's words.
"Words mean nothing without action," I said quietly, to myself, "Why do you think I am here?" I could feel how they felt about me. I did not hate them, not any of them.
I had been angry and foolish. You should never do anything in anger, but I did. I did because even alphas should be allowed to make mistakes, but we weren't. Look what I had done, I had condemned my pride. Here I had been so arrogant and stupid. I saw that now. Why did I not listen?
I thought for sure I had been but I never had. Well, that was over now. My anger would only be at myself, never at others. I would only draw the hatred resting softly in my heart to myself. Everyone else would be free of the judgements because I would inflict them on myself.
Then I said, much louder than the soft words before, "Thank you, Fuhrer, for listening to a little girl's temper tantrums."
And with that, I turned silently inward. Not another word would be spoken; not here, at least. I'd said all I needed to. I was done and I was tired.
And in my heart all I could feel is regret. What had I done? The hatred burned, and I realized: I could never forgive myself, not for this. Here came further war.
((wooc;; I'd like to have the threads where Kuna is walked back to the border please and thanks.
and right after that I'll start a new thread where she can go and talk to Vice.
I'm really shocked she calmed down on her own o.o))
And here they still thought I was a fool. They did not understand I saw myself. I was an idiot, yes, I was stupid; also yes, but fool? That I was not. Didn't they understand I knew myself? I shook my head sadly at everyone else's words.
"Words mean nothing without action," I said quietly, to myself, "Why do you think I am here?" I could feel how they felt about me. I did not hate them, not any of them.
I had been angry and foolish. You should never do anything in anger, but I did. I did because even alphas should be allowed to make mistakes, but we weren't. Look what I had done, I had condemned my pride. Here I had been so arrogant and stupid. I saw that now. Why did I not listen?
I thought for sure I had been but I never had. Well, that was over now. My anger would only be at myself, never at others. I would only draw the hatred resting softly in my heart to myself. Everyone else would be free of the judgements because I would inflict them on myself.
Then I said, much louder than the soft words before, "Thank you, Fuhrer, for listening to a little girl's temper tantrums."
And with that, I turned silently inward. Not another word would be spoken; not here, at least. I'd said all I needed to. I was done and I was tired.
And in my heart all I could feel is regret. What had I done? The hatred burned, and I realized: I could never forgive myself, not for this. Here came further war.
((wooc;; I'd like to have the threads where Kuna is walked back to the border please and thanks.
and right after that I'll start a new thread where she can go and talk to Vice.
I'm really shocked she calmed down on her own o.o))
