Hell fire, Dark fire [WAR START]

[Bhu ♥ Irwin]

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[atrb=background,http://i52.tinypic.com/1z2hypw.jpg] POW. I was a prisoner of war. How did this happen? How did I come to this place between son and mutt? Why was I not raging, spitting words a father should keep from their children's ears? How the hell had they approached me and stayed alive? I had become so good at following in this past few months. The humans had beaten submission into me, though it was supposed to be only towards them. But here, now, I had a fallen skull, lowered tail, tightened flanks. Before a Prince and his little toy. I was the King and I bowed beneath peasants. Because it was easy and it felt so good. It was in my breed to follow orders. I had been genetically altered to rule, but that had only been made stronger than my need to listen. The humans had thought that that would be enough, but no. They should have removed that small little voice telling me to shut up and obey. That whisper had turned to a shout in this short little battle field. Dogs had died and their loss had silenced the push to lead. I had cared. Cared that they had died. I had apologized to Ookami and told her I hadn't wanted to kill her. My eyes were closed and I laid my absolute trust in those who lead me. Ekshen trailed behind and I let him do so. I was not the master here. I was a POW. Aren't prisoners supposed to be against their will? "carska speaks" :: "bidziil speaks"

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[Bhu ♥ Irwin]

Alonda
The pain was something I found hard to comprehend. My cheek had been torn at Nimrod's first blow, and I could only imagine the chunk still sat in the fleeing cowards mouth. But I cared not for such a loss. Time heals fleshy wounds. It was my decision to sit loyal with Carska that I found myself chewing over. As a former packmate trodded forward her return, I laid down to be flat on my stomach. Eyes drifted upwards to Val, confusion sitting awkwardly in the pale depths. I needed to know what to do. How to be kind. I had to be kind to walk amoung angels and not burn in righteous flames, right?

I had chosen the sunnier of two Hells. But, quite frankly, I prefered the solitude of the moon.



Alaois
It came, that final blow. He had my neck between clenched jaws. As my life flowed through the newly sat wound, I found a smile weaving forward to carress my formally thinlined lips. It sounded so cliche to think, but I found a sense of relief in this event. I would die and no longer live in the shadows of the hate. I was a loyal dog, but even my masters had little tolerance for me. I knew but could not solve. I had wanted to please my rulers, and I always ended up failing.

But now, I could find some happiness as I sit in the unjudgemental solitude of the darkness.

"Paradox, you are stronger than me."

I didn't need to hold my pride anymore. It fell out with my scarlet fluids. No, I could be true to my thoughts. Somewhere an instinct had said I would die at the paws of a stronger dog. My strength in physical aspects surpassed even this brute, and yet I knew he was stronger. I was dumb and acted as a fool, but I wasn't foolish.

"I find no shame in dying by your paws." With that I let my knees let my bulk fall gingerly to the floor. A quiet dust rose as my chin hit the earth. Eyes flickering to catch the final sights of the world, I let myself go. I need not be afraid anymore.




Ayita
I saw the purple fae take a step towards my terrified brother. A piece of me hated her for the merciless way she toyed with his fear, but some deep instinct said I was grateful of her, too. I was far too selfish to put an end to the brother I loved and had abandoned. Denerbe would kill him and I would walk away with my paws still clean.

I never left blood prints behind me.

It hit me then how far I had fallen from earlier ideals. As a child I had demanded life to face me when it had an issue with what I was. But now, I let those around me do my dirty work so my concence could be clear. But was it? Was I really free of guilt? Far from it. It hurt that I would let dear Kamau fall victim to someone who held him to the same height as an in an anthill.

"Stand aside, Denerbe." She obeyed and I was not surprised. Denerbe was a curious dog and family trajedy meant only a game to her. Seeing a sister that held peace so dear kill her sick little brother was entertainment. As much as it unnerved me, I was thankful for that point, too. If not for her odd fanatics, I would have not been stepping forward, staring at my brother with tears of remorse.

"I love you and it is for that reason I do this. I know you're a good dog, Kamau, and you can not control what you do...but there is nothing more we can do." I padded to the crumbled form, knowing I had to act before my insides came out to greet the world. I was going to vomit; let it be beside a dead brother. I wouldn't let him see me weak.

My scarlet maw flashed downwards and angled for his throat.

ooc notes;;

(Alaois)--Paradox
Bidziil POW
(Ookami)
(Qi)
Carska / Alonda / Val
Ayita-- (Kamau)
Clarimonde
(Evangeline)
(Jeremiah)-- (Helsa)
(Hatti)
Logan-- (Babylon)
Mahal
Fido

[I L Y I C H]

This is gonna be short and sweet. (or not so sour / only carska, kamau, and paradox. after this post Vea apxn is free to pull out or stalk the other pack a ways home. Lucy has already called a surrender (sort of) and left.

Carska-
I stood silently, only truly able to look upon the damage with numbness. This is what I had caused, for it was surly my own doing that had brought about this struggle. This curse set upon my shoulders is what I took when I agreed to my position. I am the alphess of Vea Apxn. I will always have to take up the decisions that others can not or will not face. It would seem no matter what the turmoil my soul will be the one at the heart of the grind stones. Jaw set, I moved a way from my daughter and her friend, approaching the group leading itself away form the battle field. It took me less then a second to see the brute held by his invisible chains between the children, but it took me far longer to respond to the entry.

"Mahal?" The title slipped from me with a gust of air, my lungs giving in to the weary acceptance the rest of my form had already accepted. My son looked up at me, ocher eyes brighter then they had been in months. It was a shock to see him almost happy again, and yet it seemed he was simply a peace. Joy had nothing to do with it. Mahal nodded his dark skull, giving the posture of apology even as I began to open my jaws once more. Words died on my lips, and my jaws slowly closed once more. We knew how the others mind worked. I understood why he was doing this, but the idea of having that man in my camp was... It was not repulsive, such a word didn't fit. Even as my mind loathed Bidziil my heart still begged to be loved by him. It made me anxious beyond anything I had ever know before. Would I be able to handle this? Oh I doubt it.

But I must face it. I must. My head jumped slightly at the words, words in a voice I did not quiet recognize and yet seemed so familiar. Ears perked I turned to the sound and let out a shocked noise upon realization. "Stitch?" It was truly a shock to see the girl again, especially in this state. Even away from the pack it would seem a folami can not remain happy. My face fought for a frown even as I smiled to my old friend. "My dear there is no need to serve." I took a breath and watched the procession of Bidziil continue walking. "We are a family now."

Kamau-
It took a second, and only a second, for clarity to break through. Of all those years as my mind rushed in it's unrestrained turmoil I understood nothing. All of my thoughts twisted into dank nothingness before they were completed. Every motion was weak and indecisive long after I had made up my mind to move. The world was a nightmare I couldn't escape. Everything was terrifying and it always seemed the only way to fight the fear was aggression. Always to snap before thinking, and to cower afterwords. Now I simply cowered, because under the rein of women I had no sanity left. Women were monsters with nothing better to do then tear me apart, as the wounds gracing my ugly mug were oh so obvious of. And yet.

Clarity found itself, a sudden rare ray of understanding lighting in flesh pink eyes. A small blink came even as my wailing ceased. A smile found itself curling oh so awkwardly upon scared and sneering lips. A tilt found itself to my skull as even in the wake of my instincts I flung my throat out to her fangs. To Ayita's fangs. I knew who she was now. No more ambiguous frustrations. My sister. She'd come to release me from my nightmares. She'd come to save me from this bleak damp world. Perhaps she would feel bad for this later, even as I crumpled to the dust before her, coughing into the blood filling my windpipe. Perhaps my death would give her grief, was I selfish enough to admit that I hoped it would? Never the less eyes focused on her, the tainted blood spilling away from my mind giving the clarity an even sharper focus. "Thank you. Thank you." over and over the words poured from me weakening as my body weakened and stopping slowly as the tunneling of my eyes began.

Everything looked so dark, but Skoll it was wonderful.



Paradox-

His death did not make me happy. His words made me pain. Death meets so many with such hatred. I have never had an opponent tell me he was glad for it. To be told that he was not ashamed of his death. Shock surly had my face twisted into something horrible, and even as it did I could not help the fluttering in my stomach. Even in the blackness we can forget. We can forgive. At least I could know now, that death could change a person. All of those monsters that fell under my claws, none of them had had an inkling of change in them. None of them cared enough, they only felt fear. But this boy was different. He was not the ugly creature I had portrayed for so long in my mind.

A small groan slid from me even as he spoke, my blue eyes sliding to meet the vacant expression upon the corpse's face. "I did not give you enough credit, Alaois. You are braver then I thought, and maybe a bit smarter too." A pause came, the words fading into the death of this man who lay at my feet in his loyalties. A frown swept across my ebony masked face, hiding my eyes for a moment in the motion of their closing. "Goodbye, proud servant. Sleep well." And with that I turned away. Turned to my family and walked. Life went on even as others ended. My eyes rested upon Ayita, concern spilling into their sudden warmth as I approached. The boy on the ground before her was impossible to mistaken, the scars upon his figure too obvious to miss.

Thus I stood in respectable silence as Kamau's words spilled into his blood and died. I stood in silence as my eyes rested upon my precious mate, for I wondered if she would be able to accept this thing. This bitter monster that had suddenly been placed within her heart. Perhaps I knew of murderer, but I knew nothing of innocence. It worried me that Ayita faced this but it had in depth been her own path. As concern welled in me sympathy did as well, though bitter sort of pride grew as well. This had to be the hardest thing she had ever done; killing her family in this war as she had. I was proud of her for taking the courage to end his life herself.

[Bhu ♥ Irwin]

OOC//: Nine minutes. I can do this!

Bidziil
I was lead and I felt that emotion dwell within me. My knees were locked solid, but oh how they wanted to shake. I was making this easy, my capture. The raw tissue of my wounds flooded in agony. I didn't want that again. The humans would be oh so upset that I was not fighting. Maybe these dogs could hide me. Maybe they could rescue me.

My god, what is wrong with me?

I feared my humans. That dreaded loyalty had long since fled. It had disapearred the day they struck my flesh as an adult. A pup can take the beatings and forgive it, justify it. But I was an adult when they did it again. I would not forgive and justify. Only feared. The humans were monsters and I was a slave to their power. Please, family, protect me. I crumbled into my son, letting his grown bulk hold me up. I shivered once before hiding it away.

They could see me weak in defeat, but I would not let them know I was afraid.



Ayita
The thank yous fell on deaf ears. My brother wouldn't say such words. It was Denerbe toying with me. It had to be. For some reason, that comforted me more than thinking my brother would thank me for murdering him. I wanted to punish myself for my years of neglect. If he thanked me, I could justify what I have done. I could not let myself off so easy.

So I turned on the chemical mishap.

The woman let out a yip of surprise as I flung my red form to play rainbow with her purple. She released a cold hiss before jostling her teeth into my shoulder blade. I never had my fangs make contact before she had me pinned, pulling her daggers away from me and holding me down with muscle alone. I could see the excitement in those golden orbs, but then it changed to something else. Hesitance. She looked to Kamau's form and then turned, running into the trees. That hadn't been hesitance she'd shown.

It was understanding and self discepline.

I climbed to my paws and nursed my shoulder wound for a second before turning towards where my packlands lay. I ignored Paradox's presence and simply walked on by, my fur brushing his but I felt nothing. The man was not there. He was an angel.

God doesn't let angels dance with the devils.

[nEwOL握敵]

Stitch:

She showed clear surprise when she saw me. I wasn't sure if it was because of my appearance or just the amount of time that had past, or as I suspected, a mixture of both, but for some reason, it stung. Everything going on around me stung, it was like a cold knife buried in my side. All this death going on around me. So many of my own kind dieing. I didn't like any of it. But her words, the words Carska spoke where like a dull warm ray to me. A family. A family was what I wanted, a family I could join, seeing as I lacked the ability to make one myself. That was another stab of the cold steel in my side once I realized that the folami around her where her offspring. Her flesh and blood. I wasn't aware of the sudden longing that filled my eyes, betraying my otherwise emotionless and somewhat detached expression. A family...

My words echoed my thoughts, only a small pang of sadness bit into my words. "That sounds real good Carska." addressing her finally as a friend rather than an alphess, my superior. Which was something I'd never really done before. I met her gaze and held it for a moment, my eyes betraying all the mixed up and confusing emotions that rocked back in forth in me like a raging storm. Then I fell instep behind her, and her young.

Then with a deep breath, I pressed it all back down and straightened up, and held my head a little higher. I hadn't arrived in time to do any great good, but I had arrived none the less. I was here now, back among my own kind. Everything would work out.