Isn't Truth Until You Admit It }{ Lapara, Moon...

[Bhu ♥ Irwin]

TRUTH BE TOLD
i'm afraid

I wouldn't admit it. Bhuvana was a confused child, but she had never been disloyal. A fine pride member to our mixmatched family, I had always counted on my friend. My best friend. Through our failures, I had counted on her to stand up and demand we keep moving. She had been my rock.

Now some dumb passerby mentions he heard a peace leader joined Bokor and I immedietly question my dear friend? Oh yes, it had been a month since I had last heard from Bhuvana. Since any of us had heard from her. But did that mean something terrible? No, she was confused. She needed some time alone to mourn the loss of Alec. Both times she had lost him she had not been given time to grieve. She deserved that time. She surely did not deserve me questioning her actions. That damn tiger had merely been a gossiper and wanted to stir something up. She had known Bhuvana had been missing and she knew what would get me worked up the most. Lies. It was a fucking lie.

Then why did I feel so defensive over it?

I shook my head and hurried on four hands to where I had left my pride. There were no rules for us, but I counted on them having remained together. Taraji and Alia, anyway. Anabi had responsibilities outside of us. Though, since Ezhno had died, she should be able to break away and see us more often and spend longer periods of time with us. So perhaps she'd still be lingering about. Perhaps I could burst in among them and spill what I had heard and cry to the adults. I was a child. Or I wanted to be. Damn you, Father! I did not ask for this! I wanted a normal childhood but you refused me that! Damn you!

I could not bring myself to look to the clouds as I cursed my Father inwardly. There was guilt, but no remorse. I meant the thoughts. I knew they hurt Dio immensely, but I could not help but stab him with them when my heart hurt so bad. He had condemned me to this, after all. He had brought me into the world to lead this unsure Peace Leaders. I had been denied childhood. That just wasn't fair.

I made a growl as I pounded through the dripping ferns to where I had left my pride. I could not say their names. My heart was heavy and I was oh so angry. I could piss and moan if I wanted to, but I would never abandon my family or my responsibility. I would do what I had to, but no one could ever make me enjoy it. "Is everyone still here?" It was snarled, but my face showed nothing but desperate dispair as I pushed aside the final plantlife and entered the small sheltering of rocks I had left my family within. I had to tell them what the passerby had said.

I had to admit that Bhuvana had found a new mission.