Where am I? }{ Alone in a crowded world...

[Bhu ♥ Irwin]

There was no one to talk to here in these forsaken lands. I had no god to call upon. I had no friend to consult. I had no family to plead. I itched to convince myself that running to mother's pack would settle all these feelings running through me. My dad was not my dad anymore. The man was not even Bidziil. He was Alpha. I felt what he taught and challenged was right, but I still found myself insulted by his lack of interest in me. An instinct said a father should love their daughter, even when the teachings disagreed.

I didn't know who I was anymore.

Sometimes I felt so strongly about joining my mother that I would travel to the outskirts of her territory and hover in hopes of being found. But then, when an hour passes with no creature seeing me, I would turn around and return home, knowing I had made the right choice in remaining loyal to the pack. It had been a month since one had become two in the Folami world. In those 31 sunrises, I had gone to join the other pack twenty times. My disloyalty was disgusting, even to me. I was a dog who had always said I would be loyal to no-one but me. But my showing Carska I missed her had awakened a family obligation desire. Momma had taught me that I was only mortal, not a god on earth.

It occured to me as I pondered these things that I was sitting dumbly in the center of camp, head nodding to each conclusion I came to and left. Focusing on the surronding dogs, I noted my Alpha a little ways off, his scarlet eyes being the only alert to his presence in the shadow of the den I had grown up in. He saw me look at him quizzicly, then the two red orbs disappeared, and I heard a shuffle as the man must have turned his back to me so as to stare numbly at the den's back wall. We had not spoken since I had chosen him over Carska, but I always felt he was telling me to leave. His stares felt judging, as if he thought I had chosen wrong. But when he spoke, his words were so confident and arrogant, I could not bring myself to believe that inside he was still Carska's Bidziil, my daddy. I could not afford to tack on such endearing terms openly, knowing that if I was wrong, he would kill me with ease.

This new man was not my father.

I found myself hovering away from the man's den, drifting over to where the former royalties often nested in a smaller, less inviting den. The den that was now Bidziil's had been the place where the family had been raising the litter, as it had been for me. BUt Bidziil had taken ownership over it, permitting the small family to have a personal den that was not quite as comfortable, but still private. I was not going to them, persay, but that was where my paws were carrying me. I realized who I wanted to find, shifting my paws to lead me no-where in particular. Eyes scanning the camp, I willed forward a form that was closer to my own age.

"Val?" The man had been my brother's friend and had betrayed him for loyalty to his mentor. I could not hate the beast, for I had betrayed my family. But sibling defensivness lead me to hold some spite against the canine. Still, he was the closest thing beside Bidziil to my family and I needed some reminder right now. I needed to remember the people who had raised me.

Bidziil had had no part in anything but making me the monster I hated.

[I L Y I C H]

A month. I had been twitching and groaning in anxiety for over thirty days. I had always been a rather conflicted individual, but now as I grew older and was forcced to face my decisions... Why did Nimrod say my heart breaking was a good thing? Why was my self image shatterting the right thing? I dont understand. It doesn't make sence. Perhaps I should try to fling it away harder. Thats what Kamau said in his odd tilting voice. But I had tried, and desperation was starting to rip me apart. The humans had made me diffrent, but why? Why did I have to be diffrent?

Mother did this to me. It was Mother's fault, but was it my fault too? I was the soft hearted thing. Just as Mother was. I was just as bad. I was just as much of a kitten hugger. I wanted my friend back, but the pull between wanting love and wanting acceptance was so very strong. I wanted both things, but I could not have them both. I wanted everyone to love me, but love wasn't meant to exist here. Man did not wish it to.

Laying in the shadows at the edges of camp I stared out quietly. Nimrod would be ashamed if he found me here. I was huddled, hiding. Like a child. A forlorned fearful child. It was all so very confusing. But it would seem I was not alone in my ball of conflicting emotions. My ears twitched away from my skull at the sound of my name. Whow as calling me? Were they here to punish me for my inner most thoughts? They could hear those too I guess.

Alonda. Blue eyes pulled up to focus on the gray girl. My body croached slightly, fearful now that the girl had gotton her heir rank back. Would she become like the new Bidziil? But that was a good thing right? Why did it frighten me so...? Black fronted legs wreaching out to paw the ground. "Alonda?" I put up a front, masking my face with blank welcome as I should. She looked upset, the young princess. My mask twitched, letting concern slip through before I made an attempt to force it away. Not that my mouth shut up as quickly. "Are you okay Alonda- er Princess?"

[Bhu ♥ Irwin]

"Alonda."

I said it harshly and without thought. I wished I could pull it back in as quickly as it had come out. But I couldn't. Bidziil had said I was to be known as Princess now, but I found it all so insulting. I wanted to be the Princess, but not at the risk of losing my identity. In the confines of our den, he had told me we were not our own dog, we were the essence of the pack. I needed to be brutal. I needed to show merciless aggression. I needed to be a damn robot.

Well, I wouldn't be. Not anymore.

Once only a bound or so away from the shattering boy, I sat back on my haunches and glared harshly at him. I was not angry with him anymore. Maybe I was at one point in time because he had my family more than I did. Then I was mad because he had tossed it aside like a badger's skull. But now my anger was not for him. I was infuriated with me. I wanted to be the ruler of this pack, but not if I had to deny myself. I wanted to be Alphess because this was my world, not because I was the world's. I wanted to lead the others, not have all my decisions lead by the others. It was all so fucking confusing.

"Being called Princess with no Alonda attached makes me feel--" makes me feel what? Angry? Sad? A little bit of both? "Pissed off." Why couldn't I just tell this boy what I really felt? I didn't have to be tough. Dad was not tough, though he put on the exterior. I was no better than him if I didn't show what was going on in my head. I was as weak as him if I feared displaying my inner workings. "No, it makes me feel like a tool. Daddy may have been built for the sole purpose of leading, but I was born into this world. I am mortal, even if he isn't. Yeah, I am the Princess, but I am Alonda too." I said each word grudgingly, emphasizing the word 'daddy' because I knew it was wrong but it felt so good.

"Say, do you want to go hunt? Like rabbits or something?" I was not a kittenhugger and thus I only knew feline hunting techniques, but I knew that deep down this boy was and he could teach me to hunt other things. If I was to be alphess, who said I had to rule with fear and closed mindedness? Folami were made to be a dangerous unit, but they were also made to be a tight unit. How could we be tight if we killed those who stepped out of line? I didn't understand it. I was not my mother, soft hearted and foolish (however much I loved her), but I would not be my father, big headed and moronic. Why not be an even middle party? I could be harsh and aggressive, the typical Folami, without being a monster. Nimrod had done it every day until Bidziil's return.

Of course, he had quickly given up such a life once the master was back.

[I L Y I C H]

I winced at her harshness, cowering under her glare. I had obviously said something wrong. She didn't like the word Princess. Didn't like the title. It made me relax slightly, though my body still hunkered under her heavy stare. Alonda was an heir but she did not want to be a monster...? Then... then she was like me? Was she just as confused as I was? No... Alonda was a good girl, she wouldn't be as conflicted as I was. She was stronger then me.

Black tipped ears lifted at her words I sat up a bit, dragging myself into a seated position. "Right... Sorry, I didn't mean to piss you off" It was innocently spoken, if it was a bit off I didn't recognize the fact. Though I did worry over it. I had never been the best talker. Her next scentences brought my ears back and my nose up a little. Out of fear. She was far stronger then me. She could speak her feelings out loud.

I wish I could be like her. Or that I could have the confidence to walk a middle road. But I was a coward so I took the path at the edge of the shadows. Too scared to step away and too conflicted to step onto it. "Yeah... your still Alonda. No matter what those drones say... right?" A small childish smile pulled up on my face before it fled away in terror. A weak look of worry took over as it always did.

When she spoke up to bring me hunting I twitched in shock. She... wanted to hunt with me? Why? Despite my anxiety, this could be a trap, I perked up. I didn't have a friend in the world anymore. I had left Mahal because I was a pathetic coward... but now his sister was asking me to play cotton tail? A game Mahal had drug me on more then once. Hunting rabbits couldn't be thought of as much more then a game in our society after all.

But excitment ran through me anyway,and I stood up quickly. Most Folami avoided me, thinking me a good boy but a bit of a shameful follower. Alonda had been one of those creatures until now,and I shamelessly accepted her change in demenor. I always would. For anyone. Beat me break me I will always let you back in. I want you too muhc to do otherwise. "O-of course. Ill come hunting with you...! Though do you hunt rabbits often Alonda?" I clipped my teeth shut at the end, fearing I had said the wrong thing before turning slighty.

Maybe if I showed I hadnt meant it she wouldn't hurt me. Maybe she wouldn't hurt me... but it was in me to always expect hurt. So I turned away and hurried towards the exit, tail wagging submissivly.

[Bhu ♥ Irwin]

The boy seemed nervous and yet respectful of me. Part of me liked it. However someone respected me was a good thing. But somewhere deep down, I wanted this boy to understand that I had come to him, not him crawl shamefully over me. I had chosen to speak with him, despite me being Princess and him only being kept from Omega because of Nimrod's pride of him. I wouldn't walk up to someone and beat them down with shame.

But I had.

It occured to me then that this boy had a right to his anxiety of me. Flashes of memories came riding me. I had placed both mental and physical blows of my pairs and my elders, using first my rank to push them down, and the using my arrogance when that rank was no longer mine. This boy was not a coward for submissing openly to me, I had made his fear. It hurt me that I had let myself be a human tool for so long. I was a monster, but not an evil one.

Atleast, not anymore.

I forced my eyes to be kinder, though I knew they still had razor sharp edges. I made an effort to put a warmer tone to my words, but realized they would still hold a thin coating of venom. I didn't have to be evil, but I could not drop who I was. I was a monster, and I still am. Just because I changed which side of the road I walked on, doesn't mean I changed roads. I had walked in the lane of shadows for so long, and now I would tread in the sun. Same road, different lane.

Yeah, that was good enough.

I offered a smirk at his comments about the drones. Those drones were who I had formally walked with. But, thing with me, I did not feel loyal to them. I would defend the pack of any physical harm that headed towards them, but I gave my fair share of mental hits, so I would not starve others of the same luxary.

The smirk faltered and I found myself holding a thin line on my face when the boy asked if I hunted rabbits often. I felt a little bad for my negative reaction. If he had assumed I hunted them often, I would have been angry because Princess Alonda does not hunt such meager tidbits regularly. Period. But if he had suggested I did not hunt them often, as he just did, I felt an unwavering anger at the fact that he doubted my abilities.

I had to swallow my pride.

As the boy pranced towards the exit, I took a few bounds to place myself levely beside him. I matched his pace, having untensed and found a sense of kindness to sprout back onto my face. "Honestly, I don't recall ever hunting a rabbit. Not sure I know how."

This honesty thing, mixed with a couple smiles, was not half bad.

[I L Y I C H]

hate me today hate me tomorrow
hate me so you can finally see whats good for you

Slightly put off by her sharp edged kindness I crept at her side cautiously. People switched their emotions so often... I didn't understand. Alonda was trying to be better, but I could not comprehend why. She was accepted here, no one really hated her. No one thought she was useless, and she wasn't in the constant position of trying to prove herself. In fact I was a bit jelouse. She could afford to show her true colors. I was small for my age, and patheticly feminine. If it wasn't for the fierce loyalty I gripped so tightly I would be an omega and hated. I was disliked already. It made me jelouse of the princess. Of royalty who were respected simply for their parents. It was luck of the draw, and I was the experiment that fell from the short end of the stick.

Jolting slightly at her stiffness I flinched when she relaxed and spoke again. So she was not going to hurt me then? All... Alright. Relaxing slowly, I turned to look up at her, processing her words. Would she just get mad again when I tried to explain? Ah not knowing how to predict behavior... it was a problem. Others seemed to do it so well. Paradox had always seemed to know what was going on... Nimrod could guess rather well. But me? Social oddity of a kinda omgea, I guess. "Uh-er... Well... I can show you how..... if you like?"

Setting a paw carefully into the shadows of the trees I looked sideways at her, blue eyes twinkling with anxiety. My muscles had begun to scrunch up again. I could never remain relaxed for long... though Mahal tended to keep me at lower levels of stress then this. My face twitched. I had betrayed my friend... because I was a pathetic useless monster. Because I wanted to be loved, and had found none of that here. Casting my misery into its normal hidden pit I turned a weak watery smile towards Alonda. "We use to hunt rabbits as a game... as pups." Looking back into the wood I dropped my nose. "Whoever brought back the most cotton tails won"

Glancing back to her I flicked my ears slightly. Moving into the woods I looked around carefully. Searching for burrows. Anything. "Urm... really all you have to do is hop on them. Just about any kind of bite from us will kill them. But... Cotton tails like to zig zag so... its best to just stay in the middle" Looking away from her, or where she would presumably be I blinked into the dusk of the trees. " Other wise they'll just run you out..."

[Bhu ♥ Irwin]

Though I was slightly larger, I was slightly humbled by this dog. Size was not the most important thing in my eyes anymore. At one point in time, I deemed myself superior because I was so sure I would be the largest female Folami in existance. But now I seemed to be growing to rather average proportions, about the same size as my mother, maybe even a little smaller. Size was important, but this dogs loyalty was something I lacked. If I were treated in the manner he sometimes was, I would have left with my tail high. Of course, maybe it wasn't loyalty so much as cowardice.

I gave him the benefit of the doubt.

Watching him walk out of the corner of my eye, I tried to match his own cautious pace. Felines were usually proud animals, so you could walse up to them and they wouldn't run until it was too late. But by the way he gingerly placed each step, I took it that rabbits were not so bold. We would have to use a stealth tactic. I was ready to just read all his actions and mimic, but when he offered to teach me, I nearly recoiled.

It was what I had wanted him to say, but I still found it a revolting idea.

My skin burned in an awkward frustration as I silently accepted the offer, listening to his teachings. It was unlike me to take hunting lessons from anyone, and yet I let a lower dog teach me. My pride was sliced with his every sound and teaching, heart beating slower as each claw raked through me. I continued to walk in the same cautious manner, head low and tail cowering in an act to hide my large body.

"You and my brother, I presume? He would come home sometimes come home with the stench of rabbit." I laughed to lighten my uneasy mood. My eyes focused in on the surronding land, head at a slight angle to raise my nose higher into the air. Inhaling silently, I caught the scent of what seemed to be rabbit, but I couldn't be sure because of my inexperience with the lagamorphs.

"Val, did my brother hate me?"

I didn't know where the words came from. I hadn't even been aware that the fear was there. I sat down in surprise before dropping myself to lay on the ground.

I was an awful sister and daughter, and it took me until now to realize that I knew that.

[I L Y I C H]

I glanced sieways at her out of shock, a smile twitching up on my face before I could stop it. But that was bad wasn't it? They didn't want us to be happy... oh damn was that what the wanted? Ah I dont understand. Flinching as I smiled I dropped the expression. But it forced itself back up after a second. She had laughed hadn't she? So I would not be punished for it.. I was not being a bad boy... I think. Following her lead like a lost puppy I wavered from my fearful expression of watery joy. It became more real.

"Yeah... Mahal and I would go cotton tail chasing. He wasn't very good at it though" A laugh pressed out of me as I relaxed into familiar memory. The larger black hued boy had never had the patience to sit still, or he hadn't. It was odd, Mahal had gotton better at the game as he aged. Maybe he was just a twitchy puppy. "Mahal could never stay on the straight line, he had to run tail to nose after the rabbit." My smile grew sadder, though I noticed the stutter had left with familiarity.

Of course my relaxed state wouldn't last long. W-why would the princess ask me that? I jolted slightly, turning to look at her. Of course Mahal had been closer to me during that time but she could read him couldn't she? In a moment of rare courage I spoke up. "Mahal never hated you, he just wanted you to be happy." I paused, shame pooling in me as I turned to stare at my black topped white feet. The dirt puffed up under them as I walked. "I doubt he hates you now. Your brother isn't the type to... do something like that." He was probably too busy hating me for being a disloyal traitor then he was for his siter being true to herself.

At least she had been true to herself.

[Bhu ♥ Irwin]

I found a smile as the boy told of my brother's inability to hunt the small creatures. As any typical sister, I found amusement in his harmless misfortunes. Of course, I was not the typical sister. I used to find joy in even his harmful misfortunes. Now I found that awkward lack of skill for rabbit hunting to be pleasant in a teasing manner, but not cruel.

The boy switched over to a more serious expression and told me my brother didn’t hate me. He said my brother wanted me to be happy. He wanted me to be happy. I was never happy. No matter what I did and where I was, I would never know the joy that he knew. I didn’t deserve it. I had made his life Hell. I had made Mother’s life Hell. I had sided with the man that had ruined both their lives.

So had Val.

My eyes carried up to watch the boy cautiously. I was letting so much of who I was burst forward to this one lone dog. My father did not know where I stood, all he knew is my eyes were always vacant. Unless I was angered, which was all too often. I had quit loving life when I had been forced to chose between parents. When I had made the wrong choie. I did not agree with any of my Mother’s teachings, and yet I knew I should have rebelled by her side. I was a Folami by diet alone. I loved to eat cats and only them. I saw them as my only prey.

But it was not my mission to kill them all.

That was where my different laid between Bidziil and myself. I ate cats because I liked to eat cats. I saw them as nothing more than food and playthings, but I had other passions. I was not here to eat cats, cats were here to feed me. They were only one part of my completely complex existence.

“Val, I tell you this in confidence,” I stood up and stared at the man levely, eyes cold and warning that any breaking of my trust would result in a not so pleasant outcome. “Someday, when I am larger, I am breaking away from this pack and joining Carska. I may disagree with everything she stands for, but at least she is not a tool.” My tone held defiant as I confided in the man. I eyed him curiously for a moment before giving into an impulse.

“You are welcome to come with me.”

OOC//: I am not having Alonda hit on Val just yet, she just feels connected to him because both of them know they made the wrong choice in loyalties, but both have only one thing holding them back.

[I L Y I C H]

My eyes locked on her, flaring slightly when she said the word 'confidence'. We barley new one another and yet I fell under that category? Lifting out of my anxiety, I gave her a rare serious expression. as horrible as I was I had never broken a promise. I had never shattered something like that. "I wont tell a soul" The words slipped out of my softly, an offer of comradeship perhaps. A pact at the least. Her words surprised me, in many different ways. But of course the thing that slipped out of my mouth was something stupid and childish. "Your rather large now, aren't you?"

Releasing how stupid I sounded I looked around with an embarrassed expression. "Bigger then me anyway" It was even lower, barley a whisper as I tried to protect myself from my stupidity. Not that it wasn't funny. The snort that slid out of my maw surprised me, even more then the quiet laughter that started and didn't stop until tears had filled my eyes. Oh god my chest hurt. But it wasn't emotional hurt. It wasn't a metaphoric knife in my chest. How long had it been sense I could pain myself wit laughter? Even if it was at a slightly bad time and I couldn't stop.

"I-I'm s-sorry!" A sharp intake of breath did nothing to elevate my now heavy laughter. "I-its just-! Your so-so much bigger then me! A-and -! And I-I'll always be a little d-dorky p-p-pup!" Sucking in air and finally starting to draw myself back in, I sobered slowly. "Ah... I really am sorry. I just couldn't help it." Looking up at her in a hope that I hadn't offended her, I smiled weakly. "I don't think you understand how powerful you are Alonda"

That done with, I turned back to register something she had said before I had apparently gone mad momentarily. Go with her? Why would she want me to accompany her? Oh... I didn't understand, but my smile grew warmer. Even if it was a trick, which at this pointed I doubted it was. Alonda was willing to rescue me from this place, even if she just wanted to get away. The fact that she offered me a place on the train had my generally subdued heart beating happily. Silliness aside, I blinked slowly before turning back into the wood. We had come out here for a reason.

My laughter had startled something and instinct drew me away from Alonda to approach the rapid beat. My paws hadn't even relaxed into the leaf litter when the hare erupted from its hiding place. Heart leaping into my throat I sprung after it, yelling and apology back towards Alonda. The creature's thick white tail hovered high, trailing to confuse my senses. Not that I would let it. I knew its tricks, and as it zigged back and forth across the path I ran the straight and narrow. The animal was running on my instincts distracting me, but as hard as it was to ignore them I had. Agility was something I had in reserve and I used it now. If Alonda was following I hoped she was watching. This was the one thing I was good at. Speed was my savior.

I lunged, claws extended and digging at once into the shuddering back of the rabbit. The thing fought back, as they always do when their bucks. Claws drug painfully into my muzzle before I could get a hold of the darn thing's neck. Even rabbits had stronger legs then I did. Damn.

[Bhu ♥ Irwin]

At the mans words, I looked towards him curiously. The curiousity turned to discomfort when the boy started belly laughing at his comments. His explanation dared a smile to come forward at a small degree. Laughing was not something I typically did. A Princess should not surcome to silly giggles and fits of joyful laughted. Maybe a chuckle, but even that was not for some silly mistake. It was for misfortunes.

How barbaric.

My teeth displayed as I released a goodhearted laughed, finding more amusement at Val's happiness than anything he had said. I halted as he slowed, listening as he chuckled out an insult towards himself, an apology, and then a compliment towards me. I tailed him as he chased the rabbit, being careful to keep a few paces behind him so that he could do his thing. My eyes followed his every move, trying my best to learn the art of rabbit hunting. Left, right, left, right. My eyes hurt following the creature and its pursuer, but my expression gentled as it laid focused on Val as he tussled the tiny beast.

Even as he wrestled the varmin, I felt myself talking. "First off, do not apologize for laughing, there's nothing wrong with it. Second, you are not a dorky pup. Yeah, you are a little smaller than average, but that doesn't make you less of a Folami. Every size has a different strength. And, lastly, I will only be powerful when I get my ass out of this foolishly run pack. Or when I am alphess, whatever comes first." I winked at him without meaning to, though I am sure his rabbit war would keep him from catching it.

[I L Y I C H]

Her words registered as I stuck forward, teeth clipping into the struggling rodent's throat. It wasn't neat like some of the others pulled off with far larger prey. Blood spattered down my throat, catching in the white fur of my chest, dripping downward thanks to gravity. What a mess. Mercy kicking in I took the rest of the animal's neck into my jaws to crush its spine before it died of something horrible. Like asphyxiation or blood loss. A shudder ran through me at the very thought. Suffocation had to be the worst possible way to die. Picking the lolling creature up I back tracked, turning around only when I had come back to where Alonda was standing.

Frowning around the creature I tipped my own skull to the side. An ear brushed across my face, pulling at a whisker and eliciting a strong sneeze. Settling the prey animal down carefully, not wanting to harm its honor, I sniffed sharply before returning my blue gaze to Alonda's face. Drawing a heavy tongue across the white fur along my lips, I made a small self conscious sound before giving up on cleaning the easily stand strands. "Thanks... really." It was extremely important to me to have heard those words. I was one of those pitiful people who needed others to alleviate my stress.

I righted my skull and blinked slowly, not exactly sure how to respond to the last bit. "Then become Alphess. Sooner or later the packs will come back together... it is inevitable. Make it you they fall back under." My conviction was strong, now that my mind was made up. Alonda needed a goal, a challenge. Some sort of reason, just as I did. Just as everyone else did. So I would give her one to plant in her heart. A small smile pulled up on my crimson stained lips. I had not a doubt that she could do it.

[Bhu ♥ Irwin]

It was odd, that little tweak of hesitance that tugged the strings on my heart. I so wanted to be alphess, and I knew it was my right, but by blood it was also Mahal's, Cenzulome's, and Ekshen's. If the pack reunites, what would happen if I took lead? My honor would demand either the exhicution or banishment of the ones that accepted Abeni. And the immediate removal of Abeni, if she ever returned. Under one of my brothers, we would all live in harmony.

Sort of.

My brothers would have no grudge against anyone, I was sure of. They were the accepting kind because that was who my mother was and she had raised them. My blockheaded self had always favored the bloodlusting, unfamily-oriented canines, but the tides had changed. I did not approve of those beliefs, and I would mercilessly exterminate those who tried to live it, but I did care about my family. My reign would not last long if I held my bloodkin up higher than the rest. If I let them live in sin but killed the others who did the same. I would be overthrown.

I was so sure all my life that I had to be alphess, but now I wasn't so sure I could.

Shaking my head, I demanded such discouraging images to relieve me from the burdens. I would not be pulled into this soft little charade that had consumed my mother and brothers. I cared for them, but my duty would remain forever with my pack. I would lead them into a new era, a new and improved era that resembled the first Folami. We would not be tools of the humans, but we would not be friends of the felines. There had to be a middle.

There just had to be.

Looking to Val and then down to his kill, I examined it thoughtfully. It was a distraction, that blood soaked morsel that would feed the smallest of our pack, feed the tiny mouths of Lucifer and Hati. Despite my father dominating that pair, they stood behind him in war. I snared at the blind loyalty, though I knew the betrayal would rise soon enough. Devotion to the humans lead to weird little loyalties.

"Val, what is your take on the humans?" I looked towards him, blinking, considering my own thoughts on them. I guess one could say I was indifferent to their existance. There was no reason for me to loath them, I only loathed those who were their mindless slaves. Of course, I had no concept of adoration, nor did I think there was anything special about these so called lords.

It was all a bunch of bullshit, if you asked me.

-flails- MUSE? WHERE ART THOU MUSE??

[I L Y I C H]

I could not help but jump slightly. The human's had always been an off limits topic, and thus it had been buried in some horrifically black section of my mind. Everyone had an opinion on the subject, after all it was impossible not to think about it. Not with the fishhooks buried under our skin. Never the less I stared anxiously at Alonda for a long moment before I drug up the courage to answer her. Puffing out a breath of air, I turned my sapphire eyes towards my paws. It was an interesting problem. "I think... that blindly following them is wrong." Casting a look around I smiled sheepishly. "Or maybe its just moronic."

Turning back to look at the girl's fluffy gray face I gave a slightly miffed snort. "I think something needs to gain my trust before I will trust it..." Not that I was the best example of that philosophy. But I'd given up on not being hypocritical a wile back. Sighing with a roll of my eyes. But why had Alonda asked such a random question? I suppose she was just thinking. I didn't ask, it wasn't really any of my business what was going on in her head. Dipping my snout down to nudge my kill, if the messily frame of my rodent could be considered as such, I glanced up at her. "We can bury it and go after some more if you'd like? More would probably be better. This isn't large enough to fill anyone's belly."