Post by nEwOL握敵 on Jan 3, 2012 23:05:20 GMT -5
I don't want to steal anyone's moment or seem all major dramatic or anything like that, let me say that first to get it out the way. Personally I've never been much of one for these kinds of things, but these new year has got me feeling a new light so I wanna say something myself.
Last year wasn't the beast of years. It sucked for me because I learned alot of things about myself that where bitter pills to swallow. My life was a great big mixx of anger, rage, and discontent that I kept privately in the back my mind. Old deamons, some real personal business. It was a cloud that walked behind me and pressed down on me. I realized that thats where my incredably high pain tolarecne came from. I also realized that humanity as a whole, I don't just not like people, I feekin' hate people. Only a collection of people do I actually like and care about, but some stranger on the street corner who'd never been in town before, gave em direactions once and not a momemt more of my time when he didn't get what I said. Everyone else, just don't bother me, I got no patience for you. And thats just... not christan man, and that was perhaps the worst realization of em all. I realized I wanted to fight alot. I realized I'm horrible at holding down a relationship. There are other things but I don't wnat to say them cause I also realized I HATE talking about personal problems.
You guys don't realize how fast you've grown on me, your great, you pals, and I feel like I cna talk to you guys. Rp has always been one of my escapes but the big sites I'd land in always burnt me out and where more harm than good, but these place, it just fits. No huge crowd and I don't feel rushed to post. Its great. I actually injoy threading here without caution. And what makes it great is haveing you guys to talk to and chill with. Its as good as hanging with my buds after school.
I plan on doing alot of healing this year, and I wnat to stay with BT for more than a few months then disappear cause I'm burnt out with roleplaying, and I wanna stay in touch with you people, And I wanna get tot talk to people on a personal level better, and I wanna care about people more. I got high hopes for this new year guys.
It's gunna be great!
Last year wasn't the beast of years. It sucked for me because I learned alot of things about myself that where bitter pills to swallow. My life was a great big mixx of anger, rage, and discontent that I kept privately in the back my mind. Old deamons, some real personal business. It was a cloud that walked behind me and pressed down on me. I realized that thats where my incredably high pain tolarecne came from. I also realized that humanity as a whole, I don't just not like people, I feekin' hate people. Only a collection of people do I actually like and care about, but some stranger on the street corner who'd never been in town before, gave em direactions once and not a momemt more of my time when he didn't get what I said. Everyone else, just don't bother me, I got no patience for you. And thats just... not christan man, and that was perhaps the worst realization of em all. I realized I wanted to fight alot. I realized I'm horrible at holding down a relationship. There are other things but I don't wnat to say them cause I also realized I HATE talking about personal problems.
You guys don't realize how fast you've grown on me, your great, you pals, and I feel like I cna talk to you guys. Rp has always been one of my escapes but the big sites I'd land in always burnt me out and where more harm than good, but these place, it just fits. No huge crowd and I don't feel rushed to post. Its great. I actually injoy threading here without caution. And what makes it great is haveing you guys to talk to and chill with. Its as good as hanging with my buds after school.
I plan on doing alot of healing this year, and I wnat to stay with BT for more than a few months then disappear cause I'm burnt out with roleplaying, and I wanna stay in touch with you people, And I wanna get tot talk to people on a personal level better, and I wanna care about people more. I got high hopes for this new year guys.
It's gunna be great!
